If I am “God”, which “God” am I?
(Tongue firmly in cheek…more or less…)
I was just chilling in the void, hanging around in eternity, doing nothing, minding my own business, and I got a bit bored…then it came to me in a flash…I could be a God…but what is that? If I am God, which God am I?
The Great Ruler, the Suffering Prisoner, the Actor that plays all parts, the Cosmic Being experiencing itself?
So, I decided to try out some of these ideas…
God as the Great Ruler:
To be a great ruler I had to have something to rule, so I created heaven and earth, and everything in between. That should do it. I had a great divine plan, and I would rule graciously, and all would be well.
It all went swimmingly for a while but got a bit boring after a couple of billion eons, so I decided to create some intelligent beings so that they could tell me how great everything was.
But…the problem with intelligent beings is that there’s always one who thinks they can do a better job than you can. Well at least one, … sometimes more… and I figured that one out too late. So pretty soon there were petty squabbles and bickering, which let to moaning and groaning, which let to open rebellion and war.
Oh, dearie me, there goes a good plan…
Plan B, let’s Create some less intelligent beings called humans, and surely, they would see my greatness, and be grateful for everything I gave them, and they might even worship me. Boy was I wrong! They were even worse than the other lot!
It was all to be so simple, create a marvelous universe, create angels and all sorts of other beings, enjoy all that beauty in peace and harmony, and live happily ever after. Simple… a glorious kingdom, and me ruling it all with a gentle guiding hand…
But no… soon it was everlasting cosmic wars, fire and brimstone, laws and commandments, judging and condemning, death and destruction, heaven and hell.
Clearly that one didn’t work out as planned! Let’s try something else.
God as the Suffering Prisoner:
Next, I thought that if I really humbled myself, and become the least amongst them, then they would see my real beauty.
So, I became a normal human being. I helped, healed, taught and loved. But that wasn’t good enough for them.
Soon I was a prisoner, lost all my freedom, and I started to suffer, I mean really suffer, thinking this might help them see the light. Nope, again I was wrong, and they actually crucified me! Damn, didn’t see that coming, so I had to resurrect myself, show them I was really God.
Ah well, that was worth a try, let’s move on swiftly!
So, I wiped the slate clean returned to the Void and licked my imaginary wounds and tried coming up with something new.
God as the Actor.
Imaginary wounds…that’s the key, it’s all just imagination, so this time I’m going to make an awesome movie!
I already have the concept, and this time I am going to write, direct and act in it myself. Well, I’ll have to, there’s nobody else around. So, I will have to play all the roles.
Luckily, I am a great actor, and all it takes is a mask and I live myself into the role completely.
Pretty soon I am stars and galaxies, moons and planets. Playing whole worlds with plants and animals and people, the whole lot at once! Told you I was good.
This was great fun, getting into character, improvising on the fly, creating dramas, comedies, hero quests, and even horror stories!
The only problem was that I got so caught up in my roles that I started to forget who I truly was and started to believe that I was the characters I was playing. I fully embodied each character and soon it all felt way too real! I felt separate from everything and everyone else. I got totally sucked in, fully absorbed in the plots, the twists and turns, even felt the pain, suffering, joy, and elation of each character.
Luckily for me there was still this vague, dim and distant memory that this was all just an act, a movie I created, that remained in the characters. A few of them remembered and were amazed by my acting skills. Yeah, that’s right I am good, very good, even if I have to say so myself!
Actually, too good for my own good, and now I have to go wake everyone up so that we can chill again. But now they, or I, don’t believe myself…what a mess! It will take a while, but I will get it all sorted out.
Ah well, back to the drawing board…
God as a Cosmic Being:
This time around, I’m going to learn from my mistakes.
I am going to create just one cosmic being, and let all of these aspects just be part of this one being.
With nothing outside of itself to distract it, or rebel against it, or crucify it, it can just experience all of itself at once.
Ah yeah, that’s better! Total bliss!
Everything has purpose and meaning, experiencing and expressing themselves in their own unique way, and contributing all of that to one great whole that everyone has direct access to.
Yeah, that works!!
Slam dunk, we have a winner!
But…
Wait…
Maybe…
What would happen…
If I put all of them together?
Won’t that be fun?
I think I could entertain myself for a very very very long time, maybe even for eternity?